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sweet and blissful emotions.

 I can taste it on the tip on my tongue. Adventure and discoveries around every corner. Passion and inspiration within every minute of the day. Dreams and future plans that yet to come my way. Each step counts as I get closer to success, and to my dream never less. as time goes by I see so many new things within the day, and night. I know I can shine as bright as the stars at night as bright as the sun in the day. For the clouds will never get in my way. I cant help but wonder where life will take me. What obstacles I will face in the future. Where will I be in 10 years. Well whatever it is. I believe that no one or nothing can stop me from becoming what and where I want to be. Where life takes me who knows. For life is like the ocean it can be rough and dangerous or as calm as it can be. 

It is never too late, no matter how old you get because anytime or any point in your life you can always have a chance to make a difference. You can always make a chance for the better no matter what background you derived from. You will always be uniquely you. It is why it is always wise to listen to your internal heart, your eternal instincts, and what it had always strove for and/or to do because really anybody can make a difference not only in their own lives but in the lives of others. 

Enactus Malaysia National Cup 2014

yes. I know. It has been quite a while. life is not about blogging everything anyway.

but I need to share this. because this is one of the reasons why I feel bless to be one of them.

emnc ni where we (enactus all around malaysia; multi-u) present the projects that have been executed through out the year. we are not a charity club. no. we empower the people in need to do some businesses to support their lives. <--- ni description yang paling simple wadi boleh bagi. lepas tu, present semua yang kita dah buat. the most impactful one to the community will represent malaysia pulak pergi beijing (this year) macam last year mexico. next year south africa insyaAllah.

date: 25-27th may 2014

venue: Shah Alam Convention Centre (SACC)

team: University Technology of Petronas

no of team: 20 people

Road to EMNC 2014

mock presentation depan Student Advisory Board (SAB)

the night before

 UTP's team :)

Day 1 (registration day)

the most swag one. technical team, amirah tahir and her crews.

presenters' team

documentation's team

with one of the uitm's presenters

and we make it happen :)

Day 2 (competition day)

westport league. compete against UMP, UniMAP, UNITEN Kshas and UPM

first round

cocktail and networking session

Day 3 (semi-finals and final round)

semi final. competing against uitm and uniten kshas. stage dia bagi besar punya. sebab memang macam final round pun.
tough luck every year. talent corp league. 

nampak tak mun shaved ? hahaha. handsome dah.

left: khoo (usm's president)
right: akmal (ours)
memang semua president enactus pendek pendek comel comel ke macam mana

networking lagi.

thank you for all the supporters. without you guys, we
were never strong went through this :)

gambar mahal ni weehhhhh hahahaha. aku janji mal. kau sorang je comel. janji.
dah pi intern sekarang baru kitorang start nak rindu. 

alumi enactus utp pun merangkap salah sorang judges.
thank you untuk semua benda zeff :)

with red. (most left and botak one. haha) team leader kitorang last year. pun pendek jugak. adoi.
helmie fiqri, kak farah, sab, hazim halimi, pot, fatin habib, sarah, erni, semua lah yang legend legend tu
ada jugak tapi tak jumpa gambar dengan korang. jumpa yang ni je :(
thank you sangat datang support. glad to have you guys :)

till meet again next year in april. wishing you best of luck uniten kshas.
you'll be around tapi I tak dahh. intern dah masa tu :(
*tak. im not the shortest. tengok balik. semua pakai heels. wadi tanggal dah. barai sangat dah. tak nak jugak mengaku*

and for all that, we just made to the semi-finals. alhamdulillah. all paid off. takde rezeki lagi tahun ni. next year maybe ? dont lose hope. keep inspiring people. we'll come back stronger each year. berkampung for almost 2 months with the team was such a great memories. It really worth to spend my 4 months break with them. thank you for inspiring me to help more unfortunate people.

for all the moments happened all the way to national, even during the national.. may the bond between us never lasts. I'll be surely miss the moments being at the meeting room, training session, the tears (semua salah akmal. suka buat orang emosi) and may the spirit of enactus spurs into the community that we impacted. (mak cik aisyah dekat kg aji pun dah pro sebut enactus) *i laughed out loud sangat sampai keluar air mata tak tipu* terima kasih untuk semua. next year wadi datang jadi observer pulak okay ? no worries. will always support korang. wadi akan try datang jugak. try hard jugak mintak cuti hahaha. that was our last chance to work together. lepas ni adik adik yang ada teruskan apa yang tak habis kay ? this journey will never stop till it reaches its desired destination.

"and it proves that enactus utp works as one dynamic team in;
inspiring others through actions
creating opportunities through ideas
developing talent beyond passion
shaping dynamic future leaders,,
we are, enactus utp.
empowering men, empowering women, empowering the community."

SEE YOU EMNC2015.  TEAM UTP WILL MAKE A HISTORY. AGAIN.
2011'S HISTORY WILL REPEAT ITSELF INSYA-ALLAH :)

Langkawi maybe ?

gateway.

pictures talk better sometimes.

Day 1

sunset as you know because obvious kot

Day 2

Day 3

 Day 4

happy because I own them as my everything.
thank you. thank you. thank you :)

He is going to know.

One day, he’s going to know.

                he’ll know my birthday, my middle name, where I was born, and my parents names. he’ll know how old I am when I learnt to ride a bike, to race a control car, to play music, how my grandparents passed away, how many pets I had, and how much I hated going to school. he’ll know my eye colour, my scars, my freckles, my laugh lines and my birth marks. he’ll know my favourite book, movie, food, pair of shoes, colour, and song. he’s going to know why I am awake at 5am most nights, where I was when I realized I’d lost a good friend, why I picked up the razor and how I managed to put it down before things went too far. he’s going to know my phobias, my dreams, my fears, my wishes, and my worries. he’s going to know about my first heartbreak, my dream wedding, and my problems with my parents. he’ll know my strengths, weaknesses, laziness, energy, and my mixed emotions. he’s going to know about my love for dark chocolates, my dream of being famous when I was five, my need to quote any film I know all the way through, and my fear of growing older. he’ll know my bad habits, my mannerisms, my stroppy pout, my facial expressions, and my laugh like it’s his favourite song. the way I chew, drink, walk, sleep, fidget and kiss. he’s going to know that I’ve already picked out wedding flowers, baby names, tiles for the bathroom, bridesmaid dresses, and the colour of my bedroom walls. he’s going to know, get annoyed at and then accept that I leave my stuffs everywhere and I forget where I put it before, how much I love shopping, how much I addicted to formula one's cars, take twenty minutes to order a Starbucks, have to organize my clothes according to the materials. he’ll know my McDonald’s order, how many sugars to put in my tea, how much of ice cream I want, how much I hate candies, and  I hate my sandwiches cut into triangles. he’s going to know how I feel without me telling him, that I need a wee from a look on my  face, and that I am crying without shedding tears. he’s going to know all of it. Everything. me, from top to bottom and inside out. from learning, from sharing, from listening, from watching. He’s going to know every single thing there is to know, and what else? he is still going to love me anyway :)

it will always behind the scene.

hello. assalamulaikum. 

just a little thought of mine at this hour.

thinking bout debate with reasoning and belief. debates are good, but dont debate simply for the purpose of going against someone. I know people who; it doesnt matter what you say, will argue the point, just for the purpose of proving you wrong. you gain nothing from that. we walk separately paths. let it be. as much as you believe in something, those beliefs may not apply in someone's life.

some people say -laugh when we can, apologize when you should and let go of what you cant change. love deeply and forgive quickly. take chances and give your everything. life is too short to be anything but happy- you have to take the good with the bad. love what you got and always remember what you had. forgive but dont forget. learn from your mistake but never regret. people change and things go wrong. but life goes on. still. how can you live without progress ? I'd rather things be worse, in order to get better, than to have them never change at all. sometimes the world goes completely against you, maybe it's the only way to pull that willpower out of you. If you aren't tested, you wont feel the need to understand what's going on. life tests me to make me better. 

maybe Im a complicated person. well as I said. maybe. not everyone has a simple mind. some people have such an intense and creative thought process, it makes them almost impossible to relate to. It takes patience, but once you understand the workings of passionate mind, you wont ever want to live without it. I have an undying need to create, to explore places I've never been and to try things I've never done. comfort is in the people I love. It's not a lifestyle. I refuse to live one way for the rest of my life. I need to learn. I need growth.

well. it is just a little thought of mine. just a simple say from my point of view :)

after 19 chapters completed. hello 20.

hello and assalamualaikum.

how I ever imagine I could reach this stage. talking about the stage of life. owned a very lovely people. surround me. I took them for granted sometimes. being neglected is not a great feeling. I look at myself. how much I've grown up. I will never forget two people; the person who lost everything just to make me win and the person who will always with me in every pain. parents. changed me from nil to a number.

when the clock hit 12 on 25th february, I was glad. thanks ayah for being the first person wished me. my phones started to make those 'click' tones from the beginning till the next day. somehow I realized, it was not how much wishes I've received, how many presents and gifts I've got, how many people remembered me. no. but how I get myself ready for something next. but 25th feb will always be the greatest day of the year. from one year to another, I never see so much different in myself but Im still running.

to be old and wise, I must first be young and stupid. looking at old pictures, how much I've grown in maturity. I learned that the hard way. how much I push something, yet, it comes closer. how much I pull, it runs. my dad left since I was young. how many people see how unlucky I am. until one day I realize, if he never did, I'll not be me. keep me mature in taking any decisions. be more independent. keep saying 'okay', 'takpe' in any situations because it makes me feel calm. latih diri untuk sabar, sabar dan sabar.
DIA selalu tahu apa yang terbaik untuk hambaNya.

I walk slowly on the earth because I know I have nothing. Im just a human. sometimes, I need a shoulder, eyes and ears. not everyday is a walk in the park, and when those days really come along, you’ll learn to appreciate them more. Nothing ever infinitely goes downhill. Everything happens for a reason and people make mistakes. Some mistakes turn out to be the best choice you ever made. I’ve learned its not about what happens to people, its what they do about it. I’ve learned that no matter how thin you slice it, there’s always going to be two sides. I’ve learned that it’s a lot easier to react than it is to think. I’ve learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words, it may be the last time you see them. I’ve learned that you can keep going long after you think you can’t. We are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel. And its either you control your emotions or they control you.

I need a very clear guidance to make me sane. belajar untuk selalu meminta pada DIA dengan usaha. sentiasa bersyukur. never complain. and Im glad to have everyone in my life. friends, colleagues.

and btw,, happy national siblings day dear, my little bro.

Pray for Us. CBB. Enactus UTP.

" Dear,
Thank you for your interest in 1M4U. We have received the information on the project you submitted via our website where you indicated your wish to apply for DRe1M funding. We are pleased to inform you that your project has been shortlisted by our committee.

We would however like to have some more information in order to process the application:

1. Kindly email us more information of your project, in particular a detailed proposal of the budget.
2. Please email us more information about your Organisation/Group (e.g. history, number of members, Organisation structure, past projects).
3. Please note that the amount of funding approved for your project is RM5,000.00. Kindly let us know if you are able to carry out your project with this amount of funding from 1M4U.
4. Please fill up the attached Agreement form and email it back to us.

Furthermore, we would appreciate if you could email us your feedback by 10th April 2013 (Wednesday) 5.00 pm. If you have any questions or need further clarification, please contact us via email

Regards,
1M4U Committee "

Here, im congratulating all my friends for all your hard works just for this. we are doing a beneficial thing.
keep working. teamwork. commitment. time. energy. everything. somehow, i cant wait. new semester and work with them. Again.

cant describe how much I MISS THEM.

Tun public lecture. Graduates in 21st century.

assalamualaikum and hello =)

sharing session okay this time. I went to utp last week for some reasons. and fortunately Tun Dr Mahathir was there to give his public lecture. sooo we just 'jooommmm dengarrr !!'

It was worth attending for. Inspiring speech by him, kinda jokes but serious in his talks.

"the changes around us is not always about politic."

"quest for knowledge goes beyond academic qualifications."

"koreans adjust to their surrounding, knowledgeable, work hard and discipline."

basically dia banyak talk about us. you know. on how to be a better person, the qualifications to be hired by a good company, attitudes, skills, how good your communication skills, how you deal with certain serious problem etc. and lets put the salary aside. serve for the country, religion and not just for yourself.

talked about the world. history, wider vision. that amount of knowledge that he has is awesome. 

banyak lagi sebenarnya yang dia cakap. tapi ingat ingat lupa. well. all people around the world adore him much. pemimpin dunia. I wish I can deliver a good speech without any texts. kinda imba.

full house !

these girls were on fireeee ! *they say*

well. thats all. see ya ;)

pray for them

lets embrace each other individuality.

pray for those yang dah terkorban dalam isu pencerobohan di sabah. 

I dont really get involve in this politic thingy tapi kena ambil tahu. decided for not to say much on this sebab tak nak sentuh sensitiviti sesiapa. but seriously, it really matters. I do read  those stuff. errrmm,, basically newspapers, blogwalking, articles etc. berita especially lah kan. 

salahkan sesama sendiri tak selesaikan apa apa pun sebenarnya. benda dah jadi. mereka dah pergi. we learn from mistakes. daripada bertelagah nak tegakkan benang masing masing, well,, kinda 'siapa betul siapa salah,,' it is much better when we stand together. nyawa mana ada ganti. isu politik please tolak tepi kejap. fikirkan lah perasaan keluarga yang terlibat. all about humanity. 

the coffee. my coffee.

hello and assalamualaikum people. awesome people. march is coming.

I adore myself sometimes. because at least, I stand with my own feet. ya I know. semua orang memang pakai kaki sendiri pun kan. tak pinjam kaki orang pun. double meaning gaiisss. people rarely remember the millions times you help them, only the one time you don't. but don't pick up other people flaws when you cant even see your own. being nice and respect people not because they always right, but because they are human and it's not always about us. when people talk, listen completely because most people never listen.  the quieter I become, the more I can hear. have more than I show, and speak less than I know.

Two things define you. your patience when you have nothing and your attitude when you have everything.
maybe there is something you are afraid to say, or someone you are afraid to love or somewhere you are afraid to go. remember. patience is virtue. dont be the person they want to see when they look at you. be the person they knew the first time they saw you. I dont love someone because they are perfect, I love them in spite of the fact that they are not. because you were born to be real, not perfect.

Life is not about being who everyone else wants you to be. it's about being yourself and finding someone that loves every bit of it. you can't always decide who walks into your life, but you can decide which window to throw them off. when your legs get tired, run with your heart. the person who deserves to live together in your good moment and share your happiness is the one who knows how to share your sadness and stay in your worst condition. there are two reasons why people don't talk about something. either it doesn't mean anything to them or it means everything. including me.

because sometimes, you know those moments we might have faced when mamat or minah kepoh wanted to know something badly about you especially rumours or anything bad just because for the sake of nak tahu. tak payah lah nak buka aib orang. some people might really care, but some, wont just understand, they gonna start to misinterpret, misunderstood and that's gonna make you feel worse. things gonna be worse. and me myself as a human, try my best to make my presence, my words as the reasons for someone to smile, to be better. for some reasons, sometimes people are confused between caring and being annoying.

just so you know, it's my life. I make my own coffee. nak yang manis ke, pahit, color putih, hitam pekat belikat ke, I'll make it by myself. so do you. keep smiling because you deserve to. living in this world is to express. not to impress. be better in time.

so much me

Twelve Twelve Twelve.

hello ! 

tak nak lepas entry ni. sebab tarikh hari ni cantik. 12.12.12. nothing special pun. tapi special lah jugak.

no interesting topics to share tapi ada some pictures that I've found interesting.

presenting to you my beautiful girls ! dah lebih setahun dah. and I've found this is very interesting !

ermm. kay dah. bye ! see ya :)

Patience is virtue.

blink blink mata sikit. and yess. december again.

final exam is just three weeks ahead. I so takut so menggelabah ya know.

Just because the rest are not dying, doesn't mean that their problems aren't big and don't matter. 

four months break is just around my corner. serious talk. cant wait.

when I was younger, I'd put my arms in my shirt and told people I lost my arms. would restart the video game whenever I knew I was going to lose. slept with all the stuffed teddy bears as a child so none of them got offended. had that one pen with four colors, and tried to push all the buttons at once. poured soda into the cap and acting like I were taking shots. waited behind a door to scare someone, then leaving because they are taking too long to come out or I had to pee. being asleep on sofa while watching my favorite tv show and magically I was on my bed on the next day. used to think that the moon followed my car. watching two drops of rain roll down window and pretending it was a race. went on the computer just to use paint. swallowed a fruit seed I was scared to death that a tree was going to grow in my tummy. 

I remember when I was kid and couldn't wait to grow up.

but now, I wish Im a kid again. 

and remember, dont pray for rain if you are going to complain about the mud.

friend of mine used to say "life is like a piano.white keys represent happiness. black keys represent sadness. as life goes on, you realize the black keys make music too"

there comes a time in every life when the world gets quiet and the only thing left is my own heart. so I'd better learn to know the sound of it. otherwise I'll never understand what it's saying.